Wednesday, 27 November 2013
Today marks the anniversary of my brother's death.
He was 21, full of life and full of fun.
He was taken far too early and I miss him every day.
I find it hard to talk about how I feel,
possibly because part of me still doesn't want to believe it.
I also want to say how wonderful my mum has been through all of the heartbreak.
She is such an inspiration to me. She's an amazing lady.
My biggest regret is that Lloyd never got to meet Ava.
I was 6 months pregnant when he died and I know he would have just adored her.
So today I am thinking of the good times I had with him.
But also the huge void he has left behind.
Below is a lovely poem that was shared with my mum on Facebook.
I don't know who the author is unfortunately but I think it's just lovely.
As i sit in Heaven, And watch you every day
I try and let you know with signs, i never went away.
I hear you when your laughing & watch you when you sleep,
I even place my arms around you to calm you as you weep
I see you wish the days away, begging to have me home
So i try to send you signs, so you know your not alone.
Don't feel guilty that you have a life, that was denied to me,
Heaven is truly beautiful just you wait and see!
So live your life, laugh again, enjoy yourself, be free
Then i'll know with every breath you take,
You'll be taking one for me
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