I sometimes find this whole business of writing a blog a bit odd. Although I've been writing in this here space for just over a year, sometimes it feels like it's all still brand new, like I'm yet to find my blogging "voice".
I've always enjoyed writing, when I was a child I'd sit crossed legged on my bunk bed for hours writing short stories and making my mum listen to them. I've still got those old notepads, filled with pages of scribble and profiles for my characters.
But I sometimes feel that on my blog writing doesn't come as easily. I often feel tired after a long day but feel that I must write something, once I do manage to bash something up it's usually mediocre and leaves me feeling like I shouldn't have bothered. I feel like I only scratch the surface with my writing and I have so much more to give.
I have a whole list of blogs that I love to read and my favourites are ones where the blogger can really capture me with a turn of phrase or a beautiful pictures.
I sometimes feel like I have so much I would like to say but I'm too afraid to. I don't want to come across as a bad mother, grumpy, ungrateful.... it can be a little daunting when you don't know who's actually reading what you're writing and it's a scary thought to think that you're putting your life on display for the world to see.
But I do love it, I really do. I guess what I'm trying to say is I'm going to try harder. I have so many ideas of how I want my blog to be but I have to get past my fear and just write.
So from now on that is what I aim to do. Just write, from the heart.